the curtains are open, the moon’s lights is coming through the window to the center of the room where I am currently sitting, it’s dawn time. the sun will rise in half an hour but the moon shining so bright this morning. I am on the floor giving my back to the radiator, the warmest spot in our house.
I spent a solo week with my two kids, my husband was out of town for work and he just came back midnight. I am so grateful and relieved he is back. I woke up feeling so dizzy though , like I am only now processing the exhaustion, I have been in tense mood for 7 days in a row, taking full responsibility of my kids with no family member or outings due to the cold weather is a tough job to be honest, it is beautiful and nurturing indeed, but some nights it take every last bit of energy, especially not being able to communicate or connect with people, creative people, or at least people with similar situation makes me feel so heavy. it leaves me feeling so disconnected and isolated, longing for communication.
Today is a new day, opening my heart to new ways of communicating, through the keyboard here, through my brushes and canvas, through videos and all the ideas. missed my studio. my time with myself. Today is a new beginning and It just feel wonderful to confess, to live, to explore, to express.
Good morning February, good morning world, and good morning to you, thank you for being here.
