What do I feel? How do I put it in words? What will ease the longing that fills my heart?
How do I stop missing the glass of black tea?
How do I stop thinking about the afternoon sun hitting walls of the farm house?
How do I stop wishing for a jeep ride?
How does it feel to see him one more time?
How will I carry the weight of missing him for the past year for the rest of my life?
How can I put an end to this night fear?
How can I get a second chance?
How can I get one last lazy Friday afternoon with his presence?
How will I accept the fact that I won’t get to hear the sound of him praying loudly in the living room, never again?
How will I talk about him with my son without feeling this guilt growing in me?
The olive trees, the sky and tea, they all looks so different now..
How can I get used to this whole new life, and how can I relive it all once again?
🙁 stay strong my dearest.
You will never get used to it… nothing can fill that empty space ..but then life goes on… carrying all the pain we move on… we all look ok outside ..life is just too busy that it doesn’t allow us to sit down and think deeper… pain which is too hard to bear… unbearable pain… those hands that raised us …he who shone like the sun ..who nourished us… who would hide us in his wings … is gone … he is gone but we are not disconnected The Most Merciful knows the heart of a daughter just pray with tears in your eyes… Our LORD hears the prayer of a broken hearted daughter … just pray that you want to see him again and you will surely meet your father . Recite a tasbhi of Salawat and give the reward to your father recite The Quran and send the reward to him… make a believer happy and send the reward to him .The angels will deliver it to him and will mention your name… it will give joy to his soul and he will pray for you . The connection is still there as long as you keep it he can hear and see more clearer cause the soul doesn’t depend on the ears or the eyes , just seek help from ALLAH SubhanawaTallah…just keep sending gifts to your father … the one who sends the most gift will surely meet him the most and I’m telling from my personal experience. When a person in this life disconnect from the world he connects with his Beloved Creator . When a person preforms all the obligatory prayers and lowers his gaze and covers themselves from strangers for their LORD . HE covers them with HIS Mercy . And such a child is a continuous Sadqa for their parents . May ALLAH help us all…
thank you, thank you so much, sincerely and deeply. Your message brought me warmth and peace.
Amen, may Allah unite us in Jannah with those whom we love, whom we’ve lost.. I wish all the best, god bless.
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This Dua by The great Grand Son of The Holy Prophet Peace be upon Him and His Pure Progeny will surely give peace to your heart …
https://www.duas.org/sajjadiya/s24.htm